AS I SEE IT 9/12/2001
by: Bob Magee

This column was written before the events of September 11, 2001, which will go down as the darkest day in American history.

You'll still read it as it was written, because in an eerie way, it appropriately related to the need to treasure human life.

In this case, it was that of Brian Hildebrand, who died two years ago.

Such a need to treasure human life seems ever more appropriate for a column, as faces and names are slowly being put on the tragedy that occurred yesterday.

September 11, 2001, should teach us forever all about the need to treasure human life overall, and how quickly it can be taken away.

My thoughts and prayers go out to all those victimized by the terrorist attacks of yesterday.

In terms of something you can all practically do, please take the time to donate blood in your local area. Donations of blood can be made in the metropolitan New York area at the following locations:

New York Blood Center - 310 East 67th Street
American Red Cross - 150 Amsterdam Avenue

120 Lawrence Street (Near MetroTech)

Staten Island:
1625 Forest Avenue

Long Island:
Lake Success - 2500 Marcus Avenue
Bohemia - 3125 Veterans Highway
Rockville Center - 333 Merick Road
Huntington - Route 110

Westchester County:
Elmsford - 525 Executive Boulevard

New Jersey:
New Brunswick - 167 New Street
Mercer County - 707 Alexander Rd., Suite 101, Princeton, NJ

For more overall information about blood donation, contact:
Greater New York Hospital Association: 1-800-933-2566
American Red Cross: 1-800-HELP-NOW
New York Blood Center: 1-800-933-BLOOD

Now, this week's column...

I realized Sunday that it's been two years already...

It was two years ago on September 8, 1999, when Brian Hildebrand died after a two year battle against cancer.

There are few people within the wrestling industry who were held in such universally high regard at the time of their passing. When people eulogized Brian, the words they used weren't the kind that social obligation or politeness often require. The words used by all who knew him, worked with him, and were fans of him, were deep and heartfelt.

Mick Foley pretty much agreed when he said about Brian in his best-selling book Mankind: Have A Nice Day: "Brian brought out all the better angels of our nature".

Back in 1999, it was said that there were only two people in the wrestling business without enemies: Brian Hildebrand and Owen Hart.

Sadly, neither one is with us today.

Brian was such a very special person that he inspired all of us who were friends, family, fans, or co-workers to share our feelings on such a funny, dedicated, committed individual who has been and always will be an inspiration to live each day of our lives to their fullest... and to follow our dreams, no matter how impossible they may seem.

As I said in the 1999 column after Brian's was almost eerie, yet at the same time totally expected, when I got the news while in a funeral home at a wake for the uncle of a friend, after being called by a family member via cell phone.

I'll always remember Brian Hildebrand as a man who lived for and loved the wrestling business more than anything else on this earth, except for his beloved wife Pamela. He got to live his dream of making a living in wrestling as referee Mark Curtis for Smoky Mountain Wrestling and World Championship Wrestling. Brian Hildebrand was a man who lived to the last day of his life with more courage than anyone I've ever had the privilege to know.

As most of you know, Brian fought stomach cancer for nearly two years, after being initially diagnosed in October 1997. But he refused to allow cancer to stop his incredible spirit and his wonderful sense of humor. He seemed amazed and somewhat embarrassed at all the attention his battle with cancer received.

I saw Brian for the first time in 1990 during a combined Dennis Coraluzzo-Joel Goodhart benefit show for Philadelphia area wrestling fan Tom Robinson, with Brian doing his manager's gimmick as "Dr. Mark Curtis". Years later, I got the privilege of finally getting to know him, meeting him just before Smoky Mountain Wrestling's Fanweek 1993. He became responsible for two of the most special experiences of my life, Fanweek 1993 and 1994.

For those who aren't familiar with them, SMW Fanweek was held for three years: 1993 through 1995. Fanweeks were a combination traveling road show, along with barbecues, shoot Q&As, and marathon videotape parties...and just a chance to experience Southern wrestling and mark out with other wrestling fans.

Brian Hildebrand was the reason these yearly Fanweek celebrations were possible, because of his non-stop organizational work during the weeks leading up to them; and during the moment to moment problems that occur when one is trying to please 55 human beings and Jim Cornette, AND work as referee "Mark Curtis" all at the same time.

Brian always did this with such unfailing patience, good humor, never forgetting to still be a fan of the very business he worked in. That's the reason why he always used the word "Mark" in his ring name.

My often-told and favorite Fanweek story involves the time in August 1994 at Fanweek that I had to go with Brian to Knoxville's West Town Mall to get Jim Cornette a new tennis racquet (a local fan had taken it upon himself to steal Jim's racquet at a SMW house show the night before). Brian and I went to a sporting goods store and got the racquet. The clerk fell all over himself meeting "Mark Curtis".

I stood and watched. As the clerk rang up the purchase, he asked me "Can I help you, sir?". I replied "I'm just here with Mr. Curtis".

We walked away into the Mall to grab lunch, and Brian asked me (referring to my keeping kayfabe) "How in hell did you just do that?"

My reply was "Because you and Jimmy taught us to remember that your folks down here 'still believe'." It can safely be said that Brian Hildebrand did that very thing for his entire career in the wrestling industry.

It's the reason that he was honored at the Eddie Gilbert Memorial Weekend in Philadelphia in February 1998. He was the surprise honoree at the Gilbert Memorial Banquet on February 27, 1998. Brian had called me days before the Banquet, wondering why Jim Cornette and then NWA-NJ promoter Dennis Coraluzzo were calling him numerous times to make sure he was coming.

Brian said "Bob, what in hell is up here?" I replied, not wanting to ruin the surprise, but knowing he'd smell me fudging a mile away... "Well, if you actually got Dennis to return a phone call...if you got Corny calling that many times in a week...I'd bring a suit... and be prepared to say something".

The tribute that Jim Cornette did for him at that Gilbert Banquet was pure Cornette, totally irreverent as usual, but also done with a great deal of feeling.

The kind of person Brian was is also the reason that WCW honored him with a night dedicated to him later that year on Sunday, November 29, 1998 at WCW's show in Knoxville, Tennessee; with a still-classic match of Chris Jericho/Eddie Guerrero against Dean Malenko/Chris Benoit... and with Ric Flair and the Four Horsemen presenting Brian with a championship belt, then getting Brian involved in the finish to count the pin. That Knoxville show was an event reported all over the wrestling world, and not just for the quality of the matches.

Then on July 30, 1999, there was the "Curtis Comes Home" benefit show in Rostraver, PA. Jim Cornette, Shane Douglas, Chris Jericho, Eddie Guerrero, Mick Foley, Chris Benoit, Dean Malenko, Tracy Smothers, Chris Candido, Tammy Sytch, Public Enemy, Dominic DeNucci, Al Snow, D-Lo Brown, Terry Taylor, Les Thatcher, and Sandy Scott took part in this tribute in Brian's hometown.

Brian kept himself going through such sheer will and determination despite a physically devastating form of cancer that he actually refereed a match for Southern States Wrestling only days before his death. He had the often-expressed hope of returning to work fulltime for WCW, and never gave up that dream.

Even after his death, Brian kept inspiring people. For the second straight year, at this year's Brian Pillman Memorial Weekend 2001, the "Mark Curtis" Memorial Pro Wrestling Fantasy Camp was held.

The featured trainers were were Ricky Steamboat, Terry Taylor, Bill Alfonzo, Bill "Hugh Morris" DeMott, Les Thatcher and the stars of the Heartland Wrestling Association; along with Les Thatcher.

Readers may find the 2000 camp experience of Liz Malone, who attended the Hildebrand Fantasy Camp at her website dedicated to the Camp here

As the "Mark Curtis" Memorial Pro Wrestling Fantasy Camp happened that year, I imagine that Brian was up in Heaven getting a kick out of Liz Malone, the only woman among a group of guys, smaller than all the rest...not giving up on her dreams. No doubt, she reminded Brian very much of himself.

While a small man in stature, Brian showed us all a giant heart that is an example for us all. There's no doubt in my mind whatever that he would have admired it in someone like Liz Malone. But there is little question who the person most deserving of admiration really was.

During this year's Curtis Fantasy Camp, Brian would have especially appreciated another moment; what friend Jeanette Gogan-Olivier described as: " unforgettable, heart felt speech by Ricky Steamboat which spoke about the heart of true wrestling. Pam Hildebrand said that Ricky's words were moving and Brian would have approved because this was what the whole day was about, and what Brian Hildebrand was about. None of us in attendance will ever see the business the same..."

Brian could appreciate most any style of match , but he appreciated most an old-school attitude toward wrestling which showed respect for the business and those who make the sacrifices to succeed in it. There's no doubt that he'd have been honored to have Ricky Steamboat participate in anything he was associated with...and amazed at the same time to be honored by Steamboat in an event bearing his name.

You can read the thoughts of people within wrestling about Brian...a list including Chris Benoit, Bob Ryder, Chris Jericho, Mark Madden, Mike Johnson, Dave Meltzer, Dave Scherer, Diamond Dallas Page, Dory and Marti Funk, and Bill Apter (as well as fans and friends of Brian) on Jeannete Gogan-Olivier's excellent website dedicated to Brian found here.

Jeanette also mentioned recently that there will soon be a book on Brian available, containing photos from his archives back from his days as a freelance wrestling photographer. It's said to be packed full of photographs and memories; with quotes from many wrestlers, and a foreword by Mick Foley.

It can be said that at the time Brian Hildebrand left this world, he knew he was loved and respected by all within the business he himself loved so much.

Two days after Brian died, I took a trip down to the Baltimore Arena to a WCW house show. The show began with David Pinzer announcing the news to those who hadn't read the news online or seen the mention on Thunder. Pinzer then signaled for the traditional 10 bell salute.

It was a special moment for the group of us that knew Brian well in attendance. Many of those working the show wore black armbands in tribute to Brian.

Charles Robinson, who was with Brian and the family when he passed away; as well as Scott Dickenson, were given special greeting by those of us who knew their relationship with Brian. The group of us made sure that we gave Dickenson his traditional rib about donuts (one that Brian gave us to get Scott with at the first Philly Monday Nitro). Our seats were close enough that he clearly saw and heard it.

Then late in the show after a Chris Benoit-Bam Bam Bigelow US Title match, Shane Douglas, Chris Benoit, and Dean Malenko came out in an out-of-character moment, and dedicated the evening's show to Brian with heartfelt words for their friend.

It may have only been a WCW house show for most of the relatively small Baltimore Arena crowd that night. But it was a way for those of us who were there together to say goodbye to Brian in the most appropriate atmosphere possible...a wrestling show.

For those who wishing to send their thoughts to his wife Pamela on the anniversary of Brian's passing, or to send contributions to the Brian Hildebrand Memorial Fund; you can do so at the following address: Pamela Hildebrand-Murphy, 1351 Gentry Road, Talbott, TN 37877-9015

Rest in peace, dear friend. You are still missed more than you can ever know.

Until next time...


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